Two hands

7:00pm

Where should I begin? My thoughts? My background? My lifes story? My perspective? Any of these would take me hours to write about for you to get a full picture. But, I must start somewhere, so I have decided to begin with today and all the blanks will be filled in later. Let me begin by telling you I am currently a student at BCC with a major in psychology. At age 17 I was one of the youngest in the USA with a certification in Hypnotherapy. At 16 I began teaching myself guitar. At 14 I began writing poetry and songs.

From here on, forgive me cause I jump around alot, I have and want to cover alot of different ideas to share with you.

Most of my life I have felt like I was stuck within myself. Like nobody understood me.

In highschool psychology class I felt as though all the problems that are written in the DSM-IV were fake. Hypnosis seems to be the cure to me. The mind can solve it all. Cure it all.

I recently volunteered at Kaliedescope Handicapped Riding and must admit a part of me wanted to cry. From the moment these kids walked in it appeared to me that they were living in a world that was bound by laws on how they should think act and feel. There mothers and fathers were quick to tell me what there problems and diseases were, one lady claiming that she was afraid her son would not be able to see later in life. Looking at him I noticed he was wearing thick dark glasses indoors, supposedly the child reported to his mother that his eyes hurt from light, so the doctor gave him special glasses. When they went outside his mom switched him to even darker ones to the point that I beleive that this kid couldnt see anything at all.

If I was his father everyday I would work on some kind of eye exercise to try and strengthen his eye muscles. I would give him a few hours each night without his glasses to try and strengthen the part of his eyes that CAN see, and not focus so much on the fact that he can barely see.

When I talked to this kid and he did have his glasses off, I noticed that his eyes were not looking at me at all, always avoiding me. When I did step in the direction that his eyes were focused in they immediately went a different way.

When someones eyes avoid me I feel as though they are asleep. That they are truly not behind the steering wheel. Or that they are not really focused on the here and now. Think about it, the next time you are talking to someone, notice where you look.

Persuasion tactics:

I have noticed that if I do move around to where the eyes go that I am more in the present moment with the individual I am talking to. The more I can get there eyes to be focused on me the more I can help them. Especially when I am walking back and forth, if the eyes follow me in a slow fluid manner I feel as though I am doing an actual immediate form of EMDR.

I had a teacher last semester named Mrs. Smith that constantly walked back and forth from left to right throughout the class. Spewing out ideas concepts and definitions like it was no bodys business. I beleive there is a deeper reason to why she did this.

Personally when I am talking to someone and I am walking back and forth or continuously moving I have noticed that my thoughts seem more fluid, more constant, I am able to stay on the topic easierly, I am able to not be persuaded as much as when I am standing still. I beleive it has some type of deeper importance in persuasion. This: it is easier to hypnotize someone who is not moving, easier to persuade them your way. The more you have someone close to a sleep like state the more easier it is to in a way keep your thoughts going over theirs.

Some people I have noticed have other ways of doing this instead of walking back and forth and that is by using a steady and loud tonality. They sound unstoppable, as if their thoughts are never going to end. they just keep going and going. Take amanda this past friday at school, from the second she arrived to the second class began she was constantly talking in a line, as if to release some type of emotional stress through words. Unconsiously I feel shes admitting the same type of vibe vienna had. Controlling. Habitual to bad habits. Emotional. I am extrememly attracted to her body. But her mind isnt there. She is too caught up in her life and her problems.

Other ways I have noticed people continue to pace/ back and forth movements are through hand gestrues to eachother. Body language. continously moving. Like a river people are always flowing.

Now my thought is, remembering moments of my day when I have felt ahead of the game, in terms of conversation and body language. They move, I move, I stop, they stop, I keep going, change thought, move on to next topic.

There is something linked in persuasion and the ability to change topics and keep someones conscious mind moving.

Now on to my feelings about God. Back in Florida I had an interesting experience and enlightenment. I was trying to reach, in my mind, by relaxing my body consistently with breathing techniques and tai chi, to reach the place where a thought begins. To theoretically slow down time in my world to the point where I am aware of everything around me. All the people that are talking around me. Hearing each one individually having a conversation. It sounded like they were all talking to me. Trying to contact me in some way. I remember a time last febuary I was laying on the couch with a girl I was dating, jessica, and she had just invited a group of friends over and they were all standing in the kitchen out of my view. I then got a strange feeling like they were trying to contact me. Within their conversations I could hear things like "look over here". Maybe they really were just trying to get my attention. Who really knows but God now.

PS: I am writing this blog as my time capsule to my kids. So they can know and get a sense for the life I lived, the experiences I went through, the world I lived in. So they can live an even more fulfilling life then I have, maybe get even ever closer to god then I have felt. Truly find love. Truly be happy. Explore more then I have, see more. LEARN MORE. Focus on whats important my loves!

My most recent song for you before I go for the night: Its called TWO HANDS, and it puts my feelings towards those children I met that day at the handicapped riding and also some of my hypnosis techniques. Please enjoy :)

If I could change it all,
If I could change the world
like I want to.

In my world thered be no pain
and any suffering
would get comforted

cause this is what I'm here for,
this is what Im saying
listen to the children
lifes about playing
Im praying right now
for the people on this earth
wake up my friends
to your true potentials worth

Baby please
could you do this one thing for me
close your eyes and breath
and be here with me, be here with me

If you can hear my words
no matter where you are
then you are listening

know that I am here for you
even if its 2AM and I'll always be

God gave us two hands for a reason
put us on the earth like the change in the seasons
look around my friends if you see someone down
pick them right up you might turn their life around
turn their life around

baby please,
could you do this one thing for me
close your eyes and breath
and be here with me
be here with me

cause this is what Im here for,
this is what im saying
listen to the children
lifes about playing
Im praying right now for the people on this earth
wake up my friends to your true potentials worth
god gave us two hands for a reason
put us on the earth like the change in the seasons
look around my friends if you see someone down
pick them back up you might turn their life around
turn their life around

baby please,
could you do
this
one thing
for me
close your eyes
and breath
and
be
here
with
me

Well for right now I think Im done going down memory lane, and I will try and update this blog as much as I can with my thoughts. Thank you for reading!. 3/6/2010 at 7:36pm